An Old Friend

Wow- it has been 4 months since I last updated this blog- and believe me- a lot has happened since then.  I moved back to the town that grew up in.  A shocking reentry into the old habits I use to have.  I started smoking again, quit working out and ate very little to compensate.  It was working- I got down to 229 lbs  but when starvation got old, I ate. And it all came back- I went back up to 245lbs.  Depressed, discouraged and (seemingly) defeated- I turned to Christ for strength.  I had sought strength in cigarettes, myself, the world and the gym  but NONE of those worked.  I needed real community- I needed accountability- I needed to finish what I started.  I started talking with an old friend from high school (Alan Joyner).  I followed him on facebook and saw how he was involved in a group called CrossFit.  (www.crossfitbelieve.com)  I saw his amazing progress and fitness capabilities and I wanted to know more about it- I wanted to be apart of something again.  So when the opportunity came up (December 5th) I took the plunge and joined CrossFit Believe.  

 (45lb Kettle Bell Swings)

I have learned that being "out of it" for only a few months REALLY set me back (as my mentor Matt B. warned me about) I am really feeling incredible these days.  Feeling strong, feeling confident and I have a goal in mind that is more realistic for my height and build.  BMI is a ghost- no one knows why they're chasing it- why they want to have that "normal" bmi.  I guess it's because the majority of the people out there want whats normal.  guess I want to do what's best.  199lbs is my new goal.  Lean, Strong,  and Athletic. 

My challenge for 2012 is to hit 199lbs and maintain it.  

I will do it- I CAN DO ALL THINGS, THROUGH CHRIST, WHO STRENGTHENS ME.  

At Some Point, Something Went Wrong.

When I was a kid (I use that term- knowing that I'm only 26, and you might still think I'm just a kid)
I cannot remember seeing commercials for fast food and restaurants that served the kind of food that is acceptable today. When I see advertising for a double bacon cheeseburger that has deep fried onion rings stuffed in it, and then you get a side of onion rings with it, plus a big sugary soda, I think- how many calories is that?!? But you could get one with deep fried jalapenos in it and instead of onion rings you could get fries or tater tots, or chili fries, or chili cheese fries covered in bacon and extra cheese.

I could seriously barf just thinking about all the garbage that is for sale at these "restaurants", that’s kinda funny, because Is it really considered cooking when all you're doing is reheating pre-cooked, pre-made food? No. it's not.

When I saw this ad, I became angry- because this is what is seen by not only Me- a grown up, but KIDS- MY KIDS. Kids that don't know better, so they think this food looks GOOD. When it is really just JUNK, GARBAGE, TRASH. This would wreck your system if you ate it. If you took a person and fed them mass amounts of calories, sugar, carbs, and fat in a (very generous) 20 minute time span, they could become very sick. When I weighed over 400lbs. I might have eaten this very meal- and felt AWFUL afterwards, but I didn't care.

I guess that’s what changed- somewhere along the way, you either decide to Care what you're eating or not Care.

Do you care?